Yesterday my little nephew Zeke was baptized. Thus starting a new phase in his life and in his parent's lives. They now have two sons who have made covenants, who from now on are accountable for their actions. I love how these little children who I am so close to are growing strong in the faith and are being taught by their able parents and grandparents. I hope in some small way I have an influence for good as well. Their little personalities and spirits are flourishing. Yet this is a new stage for our family, there aren't just babies toddling around anymore, there are big kids.
Then about 3 years later, my baby sister who was 5 years younger than me and had been my best friend for the year we were together at BYU-Idaho got engaged. It just worked out for her. This threw off the natural progression of the Larson family and threw my role as big sister, best friend, confidant, and protector out the window. Selfishly, I struggled for a bit. It was really hard for me mostly because I felt as if I was losing my best friend, I was next in line and It was my turn. This was a test for me, was I going to be upset, hurt, annoyed? Or happy, friendly, and kind? I chose the latter course, and came to love the new adventure of my little sister. I realized I wasn't losing my best friend, I was actually gaining another friend through her. It just took me a while to be ok with this.
The Larson Family in 2008
More time went by.
Even more time went by. Progress in the things that count was being made in everyone's lives. More kiddos, more adventures with school and moving, buying houses, two extended families to balance holidays. More feeling babies grow inside of you, but not me. More mini vans. More of what I had envisioned my life would be. The more I progress the more my heart wants to be in a different "phase of life" but it just hasn't happened for me, and most days it is ok.
My "phase of life" has remained similar for the last 5, 8, 10 years. Yes. That is true. However, the Me has not remained the same. I have changed, I have grown, I have progressed with my siblings and friends and their families. So at times when I get caught up in the woe is me aspect of life, I have to realize that phases of life are not defined by what you think you should have, they are defined by who you are.