I Choose Me

I had a thought the other day.

I thought...if I could choose anyone to be, I would choose ME.

I dont know if 5 years ago I would have said that, maybe not even a year ago. Not because I want to be someone else, but I don't think I was wise enough to even consider "me" as an option.

Here is why I would choose me:

1. Little things make me HAPPY. I heard a bird chirping out my window the other day and it made me happy. I saw a daffodil today and it made me happy.

2. I eat popcorn for meals. No, no, no I LOVE eating popcorn for meals.

3. I'm independent, but yet needy.

4. When I'm not fine, I say I'm fine because I know that eventually I will be fine.

5. I am a good friend, it's definitely a talent I've been blessed with.

6. I'm too nice to a fault sometimes, but better to be nice than grumpy, that's my motto.

7. I'm a believer, I know who I am and I truly am a child God and that has made all the difference.

8. I have a high tolerance for pain, I'm not a whimp. The doctor said.

9. I'm insecure sometimes, it stretches me.

10. I have forever to hang out with me and so I might as well choose me as the person I want to be.

11. I am happy with the physical me, it's been a huge challenge for me my whole life, HUGE, but I've come to realize, most of the time, I am who I am. Sometimes I forget this but then I remember and it is all okay again. Never ending challenge but one I feel I'm winning.

12. Optimism. Try it.

13. I'm funny. I laugh at myself, when I am by myself I laugh at myself.

Long boring explanation of why I choose me.

I've always consider myself an intelligent person, I scored fairly high on my ACT, school was never really too difficult for me, I got A's with minimal effort, not bragging, just saying it how it was for me. But that was all water under the bridge as I realized a better me just recently.

There really is truth that comes from the phrase " with age comes wisdom". And let's just say, I've come into my age and therefore, I now consider myself kind of wise. But this wisdom has not been the easiest to gain, in fact the last year and a half have been quite the challenge, lots of tests where I had to really make some hard decisions, some in which I could have chosen differently, to be angry or hurt or hold a grudge which by the worlds standards I may have been completely justified. There has been heartbreak like I've never known, physically my once unencumbered body has been broken with no relief. I have been stretched, smashed, made lower, brought high, made lower, and brought higher. This is where me has become an even better me, a more real me. Wisdom has come, bit by bit, it comes from keeping my heart soft and mold-able, had I hardened it, i'm absolutely positive it would have been shattered and in many little pieces, hard to pick up and put back together. I, through power beyond my own kept my heart soft and it has proven priceless as I have recognizing challenges for what they really are, character creators. I am becoming the more real Wendy Kaye. And that my friends is what triggered my " I choose me" moment. It was because I have experienced hard things, but with that hard I also experienced sweet. And who doesn't love a little sweetness? The end.

There is so much more I feel in my heart on this topic, but I'll spare the rest of the details.

Why should you choose you?

And just a few of my happenings lately: I'm making this. Finished product to come. BE EXCITED!
Lady A concert on Valentines Day. Who needs a boy on the day of LOVE? I needed Lady A.

Fieldtrip with my favorite lunch buddies. Me, Becky, Heather, Jill. THE CAPITOL. Heather is having a baby in a couple weeks and we decided we needed to venture out beyond the square, so we did.