Monday, March 3, 2014

Emotional Mess!

Women are emotional beings.  Women are sometimes emotional beings who seem to be a mess.  On one particularly emotional day, I apologized over and over again for my show of emotion.  Then I had a moment and questioned why I was apologizing so much.  What was I doing, these emotions were real and why was I trying to discredit them.  Women are emotional beings.  We just can't and shouldn't try to rid ourselves of this fact.  It is just the way it is and I am convinced that it is a blessing, not a curse.   Who we are is deliberate and calculated to help us obtain self-mastery.  A carefully crafted, beautifully manufactured emotional being.

 Why do we apologize for our tears at a happy or sad event?  Why do we shyly retreat when we may not be feeling up to our giddy selves?   Why do we pretend all is well when inside our hearts are going to burst?  Why do we say "I hate being such a girl" and try to convince ourselves we are flawed because we aren't stone faced and perfectly composed all of the time?

All within bounds, these emotions teach us how to feel, how to be, how to care, how to love.  When our vulnerability shows, others love us, because they, like us, are vulnerable too.

We are all beautiful emotional messes sometimes.

God created us, with emotions, with feelings, with hearts.  And I need to remember that in "those moments."

"Emotion is also a spiritual sense. Emotion in all of its expressions is an important and pervasive part of our spiritual being."
Elder Monte J. Brough

Perhaps in our current society the trigger for forgivness and apology should come when we are emotionless, not when we are full of emotion.  Maybe, just maybe, this is contributing to the confusion about who we really are, separate distinct individuals, male and female.  If we don't feel our sweet sensitive femininity then we don't know who we are and we can't use who we are to help others know who they are.  WE NEED TO FEEL.  Feel the Holy Ghost, feel our hearts, and feel for others.


I feel emotional about these sweet little things.


 I feel emotional about these fiesty young women.  Probably because they are extra emotional so I need to be on my emotional "A game" when I am with them. I just want the best for each of them. 

I feel emotional when I think about this day.  Emotional to the max at this very moment.   What I was feeling was real and deep and good for me to feel. I do love Jamie and Melissa.  They are great friends. Although, at the time they may have seriously doubted my heart on that fact.


Carolynn said...

Oh dear sweet Wendy, I needed to read this today. You are wonderful! I think the world of you! Thank you for touching my heart today.

Liz said...

Wendy, this is perfect. Thank you.

Emily M said...

Wendy, you are amazing!! Thank you for sharing this message and doing it with such grace. I definitely needed to read this today.

Melissa said...

Gosh dang it, I made a comment on this the other night, on my phone, and it never showed up! I will repeat.
Wendolyn, this was beautiful. You are one of the most eloquent writers I know. I love that you use your experiences to figure wisdom like this out and then have the courage and take the time to share it. You are so wise. And thanks for the shout out. And don't worry, I never doubted, just knew it was a hard day. :)
Love you.

Melissa & Jimmy said...

Beautifully written and so true.